I Need a GPS

Took this off of "our" blog. Wanted to remember what I said, though...

I NEED A GPS

Sitting in training with "bubble thoughts" floating around my head. Figured I'd blow them your way. =)
I'm not crazy, uber jealous or deranged...really, I'm not. I just kinda sorta wish I had a way of knowing for sure "where" you were. I don't know honestly that I could handle the twists and turns, but I guess I'm a glutton for the punishment truth brings. Sometimes I feel like the truth would be a surprisingly pleasant surprise. Sometimes I feel that my heart would be crushed by it. But that's life, right?
Anyway, I know you probably weren't prepared for me to love you and need you so wholly. Be careful what you ask for. LOL. I am still, thank God, able to appreciate our separate lives and unique perspectives. I just have this deep need to feel connected at all times. It's like a pacifier. Baby need bah-bah. =o)
One more thing: as much as I love your being there for me and getting better all the time at taking care of me, you gotta let me continue to be there for you too. I may be as awkward as you once were now that our roles are evolving, so it's important for me to feel that you receive and appreciate my attempts to be there for you, even if I miss the mark sometimes.
Somebody loves you! Off to the next session...