Yesterday

Yesterday, I felt what I used to feel all the time
Connected, warm, sure, intense
I felt like neediness was a good thing, essential
And I needed you

Your kisses were CPR.
Your touch was so healing I was scared
The beauty of your breasts took me by surprise
I wondered if I'd even been there before

I felt electric desire pulsing through my body
pushing me towards you
Daring me to stand in the way and risk being run over
I felt like opening you wide, climbing inside
rolling around in your secret chamber and hiding from the rest of the world
I felt us
I felt us
I felt me in you
I felt you in me
I felt we
I felt us

I felt like I wanted our bubble to expand and expand and expand
until it held both of our worlds inside
and we were together and protected

Yesterday, I quieted the voices for a moment
.
.
.
But they returned
Having been commissioned to keep me straight,
Mindful, insured
They told me that while this was no child's play,
I'd better see it as such
And be prepared to put my toys back into the chest
they reminded me that I didn't want to hide
I didn't want to be covered
Nor hidden from view
I didn't want to be contained
I wanted to celebrate, and I did for as long as I could
And once the bubble burst
I did what I had to do to find the strength to blow out the candle